Friday 11 November 2011

Things I want to say (but perhaps don't)

It's not fair. Nothing is.

I deserve more than this. Why don't I get a better deal with life?

Why are businesses and societies and governments so obsessed with numbers? People are dying from starvation and abuse around the world and you are too busy dealing with some other kinds of drama you all created.

I love him like I've loved no other.

I wish I wasn't scared of everything. I wish I was stronger.

Some of the most important people in my life may not realise how much I value them. I hope they know I do, even if I lack the grace and co-ordination to express it properly.

No one did anything bad to me but the horrors of my childhood and teens can rear up at any time. It's no one's fault, but there is no guarantee I won't let the cycle repeat and that puts me off becoming a parent.

I think I'm ready for some change.

I don't want him to join the RAF. I don't want to lose him like that. But if he does join I'll support him every step of the way.

Friend, when did you forget about me? Was it my fault, or yours?

Don't leave me here alone.

Talk to me with some manners. I'm sure you learnt some at one point.

You are great in the mornings and I am not. If you won't be more accommodating to that fact then leave me alone and let me just get on with it.

I still miss little Douglas.

3 comments:

Toni Ertl said...

Hi Liv - at least you're not alone, even if there's no-one with you.

:-)

Olivia's Adulthood said...

Thanks Toni, but I'm physically alone right now and the only thing I can try and do is calm down after bring fed up all afternoon. God grant me some peace...

Anonymous said...

Ok here goes! Ill try and answer a few!

It's not fair. Nothing is. - welcome to life this is the buggest lesson ive/anyone learns.

I deserve more than this. Why don't I get a better deal with life? -stuff doesnt get handed to you everyone has to work for it and some work there asses off for life and get nothing.

Why are businesses and societies and governments so obsessed with numbers? People are dying from starvation and abuse around the world and you are too busy dealing with some other kinds of drama you all created. - thats how business works, hence competition which leads to inovation.

I love him like I've loved no other. - thats nice :)

I wish I wasn't scared of everything. I wish I was stronger. -everyone has a boogie monster, fear is what makes us real.

Some of the most important people in my life may not realise how much I value them. I hope they know I do, even if I lack the grace and co-ordination to express it properly. - only you can change this.

No one did anything bad to me but the horrors of my childhood and teens can rear up at any time. It's no one's fault, but there is no guarantee I won't let the cycle repeat and that puts me off becoming a parent. - too deep.

I think I'm ready for some change. - add some cheese to your mash?

I don't want him to join the RAF. I don't want to lose him like that. But if he does join I'll support him every step of the way. - contradictory on another level! Sit down and talk.

Friend, when did you forget about me? Was it my fault, or yours? - i left the gas on, mine.

Don't leave me here alone. - no ne is going unless you run away!

Talk to me with some manners. I'm sure you learnt some at one point. Pffft i am educated to the highest stanards of cleeve school eticate innit.

You are great in the mornings and I am not. If you won't be more accommodating to that fact then leave me alone and let me just get on with it. Oh bollucks this is about tom not me!!!!!!

I still miss little